I like this quote mostly because I strive with great effort to live by it. I spend way too much time dwelling on what everyone else is doing that I can't do at this very moment. I'll admit, it's an energy zapper. If I was to be graded on how well I practice this quote, I'd probably only get a D+. For me it's easier to focus on what I CAN'T do or CAN'T have at the moment than to reflect on what I still have intact in terms of my physical being: The capacity to swim, spin on my trainer, go to yoga and water run. I'll even go a bit further by saying, I have the luxury of getting up everyday and functioning normally. I can make choices for myself that ultimately effect my well being in a either a positive or negative manner. Seems pretty simple. Why would I want to impact myself with nothing but good healing thoughts and connections? Instead I have to pull my thoughts AWAY (several times a day) from not having the ability to beat myself up on a hilly 4 hour ride on a given Saturday or run for 2 hours on a Sunday so i can sit on a Sunday night and reflect on my efforts and fitness gains, weekend after weekend after weekend. It's a work in progress for sure.
I'm FINALLY on week 8 of recovery from my femoral stress fracture. I've made some serious healing groundwork and I'm getting to the point where I'm feeling like I'm making some headway in the recovery process. Phew....
There are days when I think, " Wrap it up. Kiss the 2010 triathlon season goodbye with any hope of actually toeing a shore line competitively to race. You are WASHED UP and HUNG to DRY."
Still, there are other days when I'm looking into flights to Austin Tx to nail an October *A* race and cap
a season of what if's and have not's with a solid effort and smile that screams, YES! I DID IT!!
I'm a serious waffler these days. The task seems unattainable more times than not but I feel that if I don't try, I'll regret that too but not without the risk of disappointment . Rock and a hard place? You bet...
I'm milling over...
hourly, daily, weekly
as a bone mends.